Chapter 86
Chapter 86 “I Want To End The Contract”
Kade
“I want to end the contract, Lana’s words hang in between them.
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Her voice is so sincere and it’s like ice water has been doused over his body, putting out a flame. Sköll rears his head at her words, knowing the true implication of them.
Kade licks his lips, trying to think through how to get this to work.
The end of the contract could be a good thing. They could be together for real.
But he knows based on her tone that isn’t what she meant.
So, he puts as much sincerity into his voice as he can, “Lana, I would love to end the contract. I want a true relationship with you. I’m falling- no I mean that I have fallen for you. I think I might even p>
He was ready to tell her the words that he’s had so much trouble even admitting to himself. He’s never told –a girl that he loves them before, not like this. Not when it actually means something to him.
But the words that wanted to come out instead fall on his tongue like a bitter poison as he watches Lana shake her head. Tears fill up her eyes and she looks more determined than he’s ever seen her. She takes a heavy breath, “Kade, there is no relationship for us when you are hiding things from me. There is something about your wolf that is different that you aren’t willing to tell me p>
She pauses, giving him an opportunity to speak. He doesn’t. He can’t.
If she finds out about his wolf, she’ll never believe that he truly wants to be with her. She’ll think it’s all been some elaborate scheme to make his wolf become stronger by taking her virginity or some other bullshit.
“I have no idea what you were doing last night or today,” she continues, “but I cannot understand why you would miss the trial. And you’re not telling me! But the Kade Shadowmere that I know would never have missed that trial. Not to mention that missing that trial allowed Caleb to take your place. You know how that’s going to look among the packs! You know that people will believe that the West is weaker than the East. You never would have missed it, but you did. And damn it you won’t tell me why p>
Her voice had risen to a shout by the end of her rant. Kade’s head pounds, exhaustion has been eating him. alive all day. He hasn’t been able to rest because he was too worried about her.
Now, his decision to go find her is biting him in the ass. He can’t think properly because of his fatigue, and now he can feel Lana slipping through his fingers. Desperation washes over him, but instead of it showing itself with a firm fight to get Lana to stay with him, he shows it with silence.
She shakes her head, visibly frustrated by his lack of a response and says with an edge to her voice, “The fact you are hiding this from me shows me that you cannot trust me. A relationship will crumble without a solid foundation of trust. And if you can’t trust me, then I’ll always doubt you and be unable to trust you in
return p>
“Give me more time,” he pleads, his voice thick with emotion.
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Lana looks at him, and he can see in her eyes that she’s already given up this fight. That she doesn’t want to try this relationship outside of the contract. And she’s tired of staying with him just because a piece of paper tells her to.
“Just give me a chance,” he pleads again. He has never pleaded for any person to ever stay with him. But for Lana, he would do anything. He would get down on his knees right now and kiss her feet if it meant. her staying.
But some things need to remain secret for now. He’s done so much, she should trust him by this point.
He continues,, “Everything will come out when it needs to. Don’t give up on this. Don’t give up on us. I know you, Lana. I know that you have feelings for me too p>
“There is no us, Kade,” her voice cracks at the words. He clinches his jaw shut when she continues with her voice soft with defeat as she tries to explain, “There was attraction, but there was no feelings. That’s what we agreed on with the contract p>
“If there are no feelings then why are you asking to end the contract, huh?” He demands, his voice getting louder as Sköll spurs him on, desperate to keep this connection with Lana and Alruna.
She can feel this. He knows she can. Why is it so easy for her to just walk away from this?
Lana bites her lower lip, his words having an obvious affect on her. Kade runs a hand through his hair, making it even more disheveled as he says, “Please, Lana, you know that I’ve been honest with you up till now. I just need more time. Give me more time p>
She looks away from him and he wishes he could read her mind and know what worries are swirling through her brain. He would do anything to put all of her concerns to rest.
She takes a single breath before looking back into his eyes with a newfound resolve as she says, “No. You said if I ever wanted out then I could be out. I’m done, Kade. This was based on mutual trust and honesty and since you will not trust me anymore p>
He interrupts her, “It has nothing to do with how much I trust you p>
Her eyes harden, like she is agitated by his interruption and says, “Regardless, as far as I’m concerned the contract is void. I will move out as soon as I can and once our class is done this fall then we can be out of each other’s hair for good p>
His mind spins, grasping at words trying to think of what could get her to stop this. Surely, there is some way to get her to stay.
She pats her legs before standing up and then looks at him, licking her lips before saying, “I’m sorry p>
Her footsteps echo through the apartment. Each step she takes towards her door feels like another pile of dirt is being thrown on the coffin of this relationship that he so desperately wanted to get out of the ground.
There has to be a way… he can’t lose her. Not now.
“I haven’t been able to feel my wolf,” he blurts out the words so fast that they stumble on top of each other.
There’s silence in return. He wonders if she even heard him. Did he say the words in his mind?
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Her door shuts.
It shuts on him and any potential they ever had of being together.
The pain that rushes through him is so great that he almost falls to his knees as Sköll lets out a howl of sadness before going deathly silent within him.
This… this feeling, this moment is worse than anything he has ever experienced.
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