Chapter 30
She looked at Alan to see if he catch on the meaning of his words but he had an indifferent face and just focus on his food. Vienna also went back to her food. Nisan almost exposed her plan to Alan. Even though its doesn’t matter, but she doesn’t want him to know anything else about her just stay for three months and leave. After few minutes they finish eating and return back home. Vienna thought he will leave immediately like before but he just went to his study looking moody. Vienna wonder what he always do there since he cant see. She sat down and check her phone for any message and found one from Benita. She checked and it was just to check up on her, she felt a bit strange. For three years now they did not contact each other once and now she couldn’t get familiar with it. Vanessa was right, she is too softhearted a normal person will be angry and take it out on her but in her case, not only did she not feel any anger towards her but also forgave her so easily. Same thing with Alan. The more she sees him and get closer to him the anger she felt for him disappears gradually. Especially now that it seems that he is not like before even though he still doesn’t talk much with her.Everything she always wish to do together with him then like eating together and staying together She never get a chance then because he doesn’t even like to see her at all. It was still a bit better back then in high school but when they graduated, he became more hostile and avoid her like plague but now she felt like its not like that anymore but things are also not like before. Vienna shake her head to shake off the thoughts from her head and stood up to go change from her dress to another so she can set off to the hospital when Alan opened the door and entered. He walk up to where she was sitting and remove his watch then place it with his phone on the table and went in to the bathroom. Vienna wanted to ask him about her dad to know for sure if he really ruined her family just to get rid of her but couldn’t find the right moment to ask. She continued with what she was doing and after she finish dressing, she took her small handbag and made to leave when she heard a noise from the bathroom and stop in her track. She wanted to continue going but another noise came again and she turn to the bathroom. She stood by the door and call out to Alan.
“are you okay in there? What happened?” she asked as she knocked but didn’t get any reply from him.
“do you need me to come in and help with something?” she asked again getting anxious by not getting a reply from him. She waited and didn’t received any answer then she open the door and went in. She would have left but he cant see and she is too worried to leave. She entered and saw him sitting down on the toilet lid with a towel wrapped around his waist and water dripping from his hair.
“is there a…” she was saying then sighted blood on his hand and rush to him. She held his hand and check for where the blood is came from. Alan was startled to see her holding his hand and wonder when she came in. He held her hand in his to calm her down and point to the sink beside the toilet. Vienna didn’t get what he met and stare at the sink blankly then she turn to him again and understand that he probably hit his mouth while trying to rinse his face or something.
“let me help you” she said and bought some water to him and he rinsed his mouth and then she lead him out of the bathroom and made him sit down on a chair. She went back to the bathroom and took a smaller towel then she went back and start to dry his hair with it. Alan sit still as she continue to help him. He find himself smiling shyly at her action. Vienna pick the hair dryer and start to use it then the question she has always wanted to ask him came again and she decide to ask him at least hear to hear an answer from him.
“Alan” she whispered slowly. Alan turn his face to her and wait for her to talk. Vienna hesitated again but Alan keep looking at her so she decide to just ask.
“you don’t feel irritated by my touch?” she asked and Alan raise an eyebrow at her question.
“what do you mean?” he also asked confused.
“you always avoid my touch and hate me touching you back then. Is that not why you also get rid of me that way? By ruining my family?” Vienna asked and stopped. She actually wanted to ask him in a more firm way and make him understand that she is really mad but she still end up asking in this manner. If it was Vanessa she would have made a scene while asking. After hearing her question, Alan was perplexed.
“did my actions made her think he hates her presence and touch? He never hated them he just avoid them for a reason and why would she think that he did that to her family because of her its not even close” he thought as he also thinks of how to tell her. Although he doesn’t know that she thinks he hates her touch but about her father, he has thought of how he will explain it to her. Even though he didn’t do anything but still he knows about it and because of his anger, he turned a deaf ear and hurt her. The words he intend to say get stuck in his throat and he keep silent. Vienna continue to wait for his answer and when it seems like he wont talk he answered.
“is..not..like..that..” he said then stopped for a while.
“am sorry” he murmured and took the hair dryer from her then stood up and walk away from her. Vienna was startled by his action and felt pissed off, she stare at his back annoyed and left in anger.