Chapter 93
The book club met on Sundays.
Not out of obligation.
Not out of structure.
But because… it felt right.
There was no formal invitation.
No schedule sent weeks in advance.
Just a quiet understanding.
Sunday afternoons.
After lunch.
At Elodie’s.
Alina arrived with a book tucked under her arm.
Not new.
Not trending.
Just… something she had picked up earlier that week.
The door was already open when she reached the house.
It usually was.
“Come in!” a voice called from inside.
She stepped in without knocking.
The scent of something warm—vanilla, butter, citrus—lingered in the air.
Elodie stood in the kitchen, wiping her hands on a cloth.
“You’re right on time,” she said, smiling.
“I wasn’t sure what ’on time’ meant,” Alina replied.
Elodie laughed softly. “That’s the point p>
The living room was already half-filled.
Claire sat cross-legged on the couch, flipping through her book with unnecessary intensity.
Thomas leaned against the armrest, pretending not to listen to whatever she was muttering under her breath.
Isabelle was by the window, scrolling—not on a phone, but through a magazine she had found somewhere.
“You’re late,” Claire said immediately.
“I’m not p>
“You are. We started arguing ten minutes ago p>
“That’s not a schedule,” Alina said.
“It is for us p>
Thomas glanced up. “Ignore her. She just likes having an audience p>
“I do not p>
“Yes, you do p>
Alina smiled slightly as she took a seat.
It began the way it always did.
Not with structure.
Not with analysis.
But with opinions.
“I don’t understand why the main character made that decision,” Claire said, flipping a page again as if the answer might suddenly appear.
“Because she was scared,” Isabelle replied calmly.
“That’s not a reason. That’s an excuse p>
“It’s human p>
“That doesn’t make it good writing p>
Thomas leaned forward slightly. “Or maybe it makes it very good writing p>
Claire narrowed her eyes at him.
“You’re only saying that because you liked the ending p>
“I did like the ending p>
“Exactly p>
“That doesn’t invalidate my argument p>
“It does if your argument is biased p>
“It’s not biased. It’s informed p>
Alina listened.
Not as an outsider.
Not as someone observing from a distance.
But as someone… inside it.
She didn’t feel the need to lead.
To guide.
To smooth the conversation.
She just… contributed when she wanted to.
“I think,” she said after a while, “the decision wasn’t about fear p>
Three pairs of eyes turned to her.
“It was about timing p>
A pause.
“What do you mean?” Isabelle asked.
“She wasn’t ready to face the consequence yet. Not because she didn’t understand it—but because she did p>
Claire tilted her head slightly.
“So she delayed it p>
“Yes p>
“That’s worse p>
“Maybe,” Alina said. “But it’s also honest p>
Silence followed.
Not awkward.
Just… thoughtful.
Thomas nodded once. “That makes sense p>
Claire leaned back slightly, considering.
“Of course she did,” Alina said softly.
Another pause.
“Then why defend it?” Claire asked.
Alina didn’t answer immediately.
She looked down at the book in her hands.
“Because making the wrong choice doesn’t make someone less real p>
The room quieted.
Not dramatically.
Just… gently.
Later, the conversation drifted.
From books to films.
From films to memories.
From memories to nothing in particular.
Time moved without being measured.
No one checked a clock.
No one reached for a device.
It simply… passed.
On Wednesday, Isabelle showed up at Alina’s door with a small wooden spinner.
“What’s that?” Alina asked, stepping aside to let her in.
“Decision-making tool p>
Alina raised an eyebrow.
“For what p>
“Lunch p>
Claire and Thomas arrived shortly after.
“We’re not choosing where to eat?” Claire asked.
“No,” Isabelle said, placing the spinner on the table. “We’re letting fate decide p>
“That’s ridiculous p>
“It’s efficient p>
“It’s chaotic p>
“It’s fun p>
Thomas looked at the spinner. “What are the options p>
“Everything within walking distance p>
“That’s too many p>
“Exactly p>
Claire crossed her arms. “I don’t trust this p>
“You don’t trust anything,” Isabelle said calmly.
“That’s not true p>
“It is p>
Alina watched them, amused.
“Are we doing this or not?” Thomas asked.
“Yes,” Isabelle said.
She spun the arrow.
It turned once.
Twice.
Slowed.
Stopped.
They all leaned in slightly.
“Perfect,” Isabelle replied.
The restaurant was small.
Unremarkable from the outside.
Inside, it was even simpler.
A few tables.
Soft lighting.
A menu written by hand.
“This is your idea of fun?” Claire whispered.
“Yes p>
They sat.
Ordered.
Waited.
The food arrived slowly.
Not inefficiently.
Just… without any hurry.
They tasted it.
And then—
“Oh p>
Claire blinked. “Okay p>
Thomas nodded once. “That’s… good p>
Isabelle smiled.
Alina didn’t say anything.
She just took another bite.
There was something about discovering something without planning it.
Without optimizing for it.
It made the experience feel… earned.
“See?” Isabelle said.
“I still don’t trust the spinner,” Claire replied.
“But you like the result p>
“That’s not the same thing p>
“It is today p>
They stayed longer than they needed to.
Of course they did.
The conversation moved easily.
Not because it was interesting.
But because it didn’t need to be.
And somewhere in the middle of it—
Alina realized something.
She wasn’t performing.
She wasn’t adjusting her tone.
Her responses.
Her presence.
She wasn’t anticipating.
She was just… there.
On Friday morning, Elodie called.
“I need help,” she said.
“With what p>
“A disaster p>
Alina paused. “What kind of disaster p>
“A baking one p>
When she arrived, the kitchen smelled overwhelmingly of lemon.
Elodie stood at the counter, hands dusted with flour.
“I may have miscalculated something p>
Alina looked at the mixture in the bowl.
“It doesn’t look like a disaster p>
“That’s because you haven’t tasted it p>
She handed her a spoon.
Alina did.
A pause.
Elodie sighed. “Exactly p>
They started over.
Not quickly.
Not efficiently.
Carefully.
“Baking is not about control,” Elodie said, measuring ingredients slowly.
“It seems like it is p>
“It looks like it is. But it’s not p>
“What is it, then p>
“Balance p>
Alina watched as she adjusted the mixture.
“Too much of one thing,” Elodie continued, “and everything else disappears p>
They worked side by side.
Hands moving.
Ingredients blending.
No rush.
No pressure to get it perfect on the first try.
They talked.
Not about anything important.
Just… things.
And in between—
Silence.
Comfortable.
Unforced.
When the pies were finally done, they let them cool by the window.
The sunlight caught the surface just slightly, giving it a soft glow.
Elodie cut a slice.
Handed it to Alina.
She tasted it.
A pause.
Then—
A small nod.
“It’s good p>
Elodie smiled.
“Of course it is p>
They sat at the table.
Shared the pie.
No celebration.
No dramatic moment.
Just… satisfaction.
Later that evening, back in her own space, Alina stood by the window again.
èze was quiet.
As it always was.
But it didn’t feel distant anymore.
It felt p>
familiar.
Her phone rested on the table behind her.
Unread messages.
Work updates.
New York moving at its usual pace.
But for once—
It didn’t pull at her.
It didn’t define her rhythm.
She turned back toward the room.
The book from Sunday lay open on the table.
A page marked.
Waiting.
She picked it up.
Sat down.
And continued reading.
Not because she had to.
But because she wanted to.
Somewhere between conversations that didn’t need structure p>
Between lunches decided by chance p>
Between learning how to balance something as simple as lemon and sugar—
Alina realized something quietly.
She was no longer passing through this place.
She was part of it.
Not temporarily.
Not conditionally.
But fully.
And for the first time in a long time—
She didn’t feel like she had to leave.
She was p>
rooted.