Chapter 128
Kai POV
I stared at my mother, my heart thudding painfully in my chest.
“What did you just say?” I whispered, certain I had misheard her.
My mother’s eyes—the same amber color as mine—bore into me with an intensity that made me take a step back.
“You didn’t kill your mate, Kai. Your first mate p>
“I… didn’t kill her p>
The words felt foreign on my tongue—like they belonged to someone else. For weeks, that nightmare had haunted me—visions of blood, screams, and the life I believed I’d taken with my own hands.
The room seemed to tilt around me. The crushing weight of guilt, believing I was responsible for the death of a mate I couldn’t even remember. The fragmented visions that had haunted me since the pack healer tried to recover my memories—a girl with bright eyes, her laughter, followed by screams and blood—suddenly took on a new, terrifying meaning.
My knees buckled, and I stumbled back onto the edge of the bed. My head was spinning. I dragged my hands through my hair, trying to make sense of everything.
“But… I saw her.” My voice was raw, trembling. “I saw the blood… I saw her lying there p>
“No, Kai… you didn’t p>
“So it was real,” I said, my voice sounding distant even to my own ears. “Everything I saw in the vision… I really did have a first mate p>
My mother’s face tightened, lines of worry etching deeper around her eyes. She moved to the window, looking out over the pack lands.
“Yes,” she said finally. “You did p>
My body felt weak and I laid back down on the bed, trying to process what this meant. All these years, the pack had treated me with caution, whispering about the Alpha’s son who couldn’t be trusted with a mate. My own mother had discouraged every potential match, citing concerns about my “unstable nature.” I’d accepted it, believing their caution was justified by a past mistake I couldn’t remember.
“Why?” I demanded, anger beginning to burn through the shock. “Why did you let her die? And why did you let me believe I killed her p>
My mother turned sharply, her eyes flashing. “I didn’t ’let’ anyone die, Kai. And I never said you killed her. You drew that conclusion yourself when your memories began returning in fragments p>
“Then what happened to her?” I stood, my hands clenching into fists. “And why have you been keeping me from finding another mate all these years p>
She crossed the room, her movements tense, “Your first mate is not the girl you saved some weeks ago, Kai. That’s what you don’t understand. You only know half the story p>
Confusion washed over me. “What are you talking about? Mia is my first mate. She has the same face as the woman I saw in the visions”
My mother took a deep breath, seeming to steel herself. “Six years ago, there was an attack on a neighboring human village. You were with the warriors who responded. A girl was trapped in one of the burning buildings, and you went in after her p>
Flashes of memory surfaced—heat, smoke, the terrified eyes of a human girl no older than sixteen. The feeling of her weight in my arms as I carried her to safety.
“I remember,” I said slowly. “But what does that have to do with my mate p>
“The girl wasn’t alone in that building, Kai. Your mate was there too p>
The room went silent, the only sound my ragged breathing. Something cold and heavy settled in my stomach.
“My mate was… human?” It wasn’t unheard of, but it was rare and often frowned upon, especially for the son of an Alpha.
My mother shook her head. “No. Your mate was a wolf from the Silvermoon Pack. She was visiting the human settlement to trade. When the attack happened, she was helping evacuate people p>
More fragments slotted into place—a flash of silver-blonde hair, a voice calling my name, a hand reaching for mine through the flames.
“You loved her so much, Kai,” my mother continued, her voice strained. “The bond between both of you was the strongest I’ve ever seen. In the middle of chaos and destruction… she insisted you care for the people in the building and that she’s fine. That’s when She trailed off.
“When what?” I demanded, standing so abruptly that she flinched. “What happened p>
My mother’s lips parted, but no sound came out at first—like she was battling whether to finally tell me the truth.
Then, finally, she whispered,
“Your first mate… she was never supposed to exist p>
I blinked, stunned.
“What the hell does that even mean p>
She closed her eyes for a moment, gathering herself.
“There are some bloodlines in our world, Kai… that were never meant to mix.” She looked at me with a distant, haunted expression. “Your mate was one of them. I don’t know how the Moon Goddess paired you… but your bond with her was unnatural. It… broke something inside you p>
I felt my breath catch.
Broke something inside me?
No. That couldn’t be right.
Everything inside me screamed to deny it—because how could the bond with a mate ever be unnatural?
“The roof caved in on her. It was an inferno there was nothing anyone could do. After that, I had to watch you go out of control because of the lose,” she whispered. “The intensity of it… it was too much. You became insane, Kai. Started hurting yourself to try to calm the rage and power surging through you.
I stared at her in disbelief. “That’s not possible. I know losing one’s mate can cause pain losing clarity, losing strength—but not madness p>
“My point exactly. After that loss, you went out of control. It seemed the loss amplified a lot of thing that your body could not handle. You used to cut yourself, Kai,” a tear rolled down her eyes. “We had to keep you in chains cause we were worried and scared about you p>
She reached for my wrist, turning it over to reveal the faint scars I’d always believed came from training accidents. “You did this to yourself, clawing at your own skin when the power threatened to consume you p>
I jerked my arm away, unwilling to believe her. “So what exactly happened to her? To my mate p>