Chapter 134
~ NYSSA
I sobbed in his arms until there was no more energy left in me,
I’d soaked his shirt with my tears but he did not seem to mind. He brushed his fingers down my spine lazily, warm breath fanning my ears as he pulled me closer to him.
Long after I’d finished crying I just sat there silently, reveling in the feel of his hands against me, in the soft and steady rhythm of his heart and the overwhelming nature of his presence. I did not know when it happened or how, but something shifted in the air and what was supposed to be a comforting gesture felt… more.
I squirmed in his lap, pushing myself closer to him. I could feel the hardness of his thighs between my legs and the sheer strength of him underneath me. His arms band around me tighter for only the fraction of a second, then he was pulling back, trailing them down to my waist as he pulled back from me.
“Are you alright?” he asked, eyes searching me.
I swallowed thickly, trying to focus on anything but his full lips mere inches from me. “I am p>
I glanced up at him then back at his lips and he groaned, a low sound that rumbled from his chest and sent shockwaves down my body.
“We should go back inside,” he whispered but I did not move. “Nyssa p>
“No p>
I trailed my hands up his shoulders and around his neck, letting my hands freely explore his body. Touching him felt right, it also felt familiar and the moment I started, I knew I would be unable to stop,
My fingertips grazed the hair at the base of his neck and I felt him harden underneath me, a curse leaving his lips in a harsh whisper.
“Nyssa, please, I don’t want to take advantage of you,” he ground out. “it’s been a long day for you. I think you should go to bed p>
I rolled my eyes at him. “I’m not a child, Rowan p>
“I know you’re not but… fuck p>
I rocked my hips slowly, experimentally. A wave of pleasure washed over me fiercely as my core clenched around nothing. He was so hard, he was practically straining through his pants and I wanted him inside of me.
“Nyssa, please, I can’t… fuck p>
I stilled instantly, worrying coating me and crawling up my spine. “Do you… shit. You don’t want this. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that p>
Disgust coated my insides as I realized that I had become the one thing I hated. I had done to him what Henry had done to me. I pushed off him, scrambling to get away when his arms wrapped around my hips, slamming me back onto his lap hard.
“Rowan, I want to p>
“Look at me!” he snapped and my eyes instantly found his. “I never said I didn’t want this. Trust me, Nyssa, there is very little I want more than this, but I don’t want to take advantage of you p>
Relief coursed through my bones. “You’re not p>
He did not look convinced but now that I knew he wanted it, there was nothing that stopped me from rolling my hips over his, the friction from our clothes both frustrating and exciting.
I lowered my lips to his, our mouth barely brushing but so close that I could breathe in his air.
“I want this, Rowan,” I assured him in a soft whisper. “Please, I need this p>
Need was no exaggeration.
I needed him inside of me, needed him to take away all the bad memories. I needed things to return to the way they were the night before everything changed, where we lay in his bed and he fucked me hard enough to shake the headboard.
“Let me take you inside p>
“No,” I cut him off.:”Right here, on this bench p>
Rowan searched my eyes, as if trying to make sure that I knew what I was asking for. I don’t know what he saw in my eyes but it must have convinced him because he cursed and dragged my mouth to his, kissing me fiercely.
The kiss stole all rational thoughts from my brain and sent waves of pleasure flooding through me. I wrapped my arms around his neck, fusing our bodies together as I moaned into him. His tongue slipped into my mouth, licking and claiming every inch of me.
“You taste so fucking perfect,” he murmured into the kiss. “I want to taste you everywhere. I want to get on my knees and p>
I wanted those things, more than I could even explain, but there was something I wanted more.
“Later,” I ground out. “I need you inside of me, Rowan p>
He pulled us to our feet, tugging the waistband of my pants and pulling them down to my ankles.
He didn’t even bother to take them off before pulling me back into his lap. I tugged frantically at his belt, ripping his fly open and wrapping my arms around his length through his boxers.
He cursed, hips lifting to meet my hand. “Careful, little wolf or this will be over before it even begins p>
I pulled him out, core weeping at the sheer size of him. I’d forgotten just how fucking large he was.
He grabbed my chin, pulling me back to him for a kiss as his hands found the hem of my shirt. We broke the kiss long enough for him to pull it over my head and his fingers tangled into my hair, tugging back harshly so he peppered my neck with kisses.
“Rowan!” I groaned as he sucked on a particularly sensitive spot of my skin.
“I know, baby,” he whispered, free hand finding my hips. “You want my cock, don’t you?” I managed a weak nod. “Use your words, baby p>
“Yes! Fuck, yes p>
He took a pert nipple into his mouth and I moaned. He sucked hard, teeth grazing over my skin. I felt it all the way down to the apex of my thighs and I cried out, hips rocking desperately, searching for pleasure.
“Please p>
“I do love it when you beg,” he murmured.
He gripped my hips with both hands and in one sharp move, slammed me down on his cock.
Heat burst through my vision as I groaned, feeling stretched to the max. I felt him everywhere, in my head, in my chest and between my fucking thighs.
“You want me to fuck you, Nyssa?” he asked, words slurred by my ears. “Your wish is my command p>