Chapter 333
“My God…” The voice that leaves me is unrecognizable.
I thought Chloe and I had built something real, something beautiful, only to realize that it wasn’t. It was stolen.
I lived a life that was never meant to be hers. A life that belonged to Sierra.
I lived out a dream, while the woman who created it was cast out of it.
My hand moves to my chest, gripping tightly as if that will somehow ease the crushing weight inside, but it doesn’t. Nothing can save me from this.
Chloe didn’t just steal Sierra’s life, she also bullied her but disguised it as care, called her names and made snide remarks while dressing it up as concern. Spread rumors behind her back while smiling in her face like the perfect friend.
She sent her each and every milestone: honeymoon, pregnancy, the twins’ birth, vacations…everything, just to rub it in her face that she got what she always dreamt about. To show her that she had taken the life Sierra once dreamed of.
Even the story about Sierra not coming to see the twins? Another fucking lie.
She fed both of us different versions of the truth just to keep us apart. To make sure our paths never crossed again.
She didn’t just hurt Sierra; she made her life a living hell and I stood right beside her while she did it because I was too fucking blind to see it. Too stupid to question it. Too busy believing the lies she fed me.
I pick up the notebook again, my hands unsteady but my mind set.
There are only two pages left and I’m determined to finish this, no matter how much it destroys me.
[I’ve told Noah a lot of lies over the years, but my biggest lie was the one in college p>
My heart starts racing as my eyes scan the page.
[I know I’m the one who broke up with him, but the moment I realized they were getting close again, I couldn’t walk away. I knew I should but the thought of Sierra having Noah felt like walking barefoot over burning coals. So, I did what I do best… I lied.
I told Noah not to trust Sierra. That while he thought they were building something real, she was busy sleeping with Chad and Brian playing all three of them at once.
I showed him fake texts and edited pictures because I knew that after spending so much time around her, he’d need more than just my word to believe it p>
Have you ever actually heard your heart break? Because I hear mine as it shatters into pieces inside my chest.
[Once again, he believed me and cut ties with Sierra. Once again, I was there for him, helping him pick up the pieces of his broken heart and once again I won against Sierra p>
My chest caves in, the pain so sharp it feels like something is physically crushing my heart.
I thought Sierra betrayed me. I thought she used me. I thought she was the one who broke me but no… it was the woman I married.
Chloe broke me, then turned around and pretended to be the one putting me back together.
A bitter, broken laugh tears out of me.
I used to think Sierra was the villain in my story and I never understood why she looked at me like I was the one who destroyed her, but now it’s so fucking clear… Chloe and I were always the villains in hers.
I try to drag air into my lungs, but it doesn’t come easy. Every breath feels forced and painful, like my body is rejecting it. Still, I force myself to turn the last page.
[This is my karma for every foul thing I did to Sierra. The pain wrecking my body? It’s a hundred times the pain Sierra felt every time her heart broke and every time her soul shattered.
I won’t beg for forgiveness because I deserve to burn in hell, but Noah, if you ever find this notebook, if you ever read this, just know that I am sorry… So, fucking sorry for what I did to you and Sierra p>